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1. What is one thing you really like about yourself? Why?
My open mind and accepting, "people person" nature. I think they are super important traits in this world, and it makes my life a lot more pleasant and interesting.

2. If you could commit any crime without experiencing consequences, what would it be? (the only rule is that this can not be a crime of stealing/robbery)
I'd stow away on a boat or plane and travel to a foreign country so I could experience life in their culture.

3. What is your favorite season, and why?
I'd have to say spring or summer, mostly because I hate being cold, and I love to spend time outdoors. Looking up at the stars is so much more appealing on a nice summer or spring night as opposed to a cold, frigid winter night.

4. What are your top three obsessions?
At the moment: colorful toenails, Diet Coke, and "Cats" rehearsals.

5. If you could add one thing to your personality what would it be?
Although I am a people person, I'd like to be a bit more trusting. I was more apt to easily trust people in the past, but past burns have kinda spoiled that for me, and it's crappy baggage I still carry around. Unfortunately.

6. If you had to be in prison for life, and could only have five items in your cell, what would you choose to have?
A cell phone, a computer with internet access, my pink stuffed frog, good food, and soft toilet paper.

7. If the THOUGHT POLICE were storming your front door, and you could only hide away five memories before they confiscated all of your memories, what five memories would you hide ?(These are in no particular order...)
(a) My brother and I growing up together, and all that we've done.
(b) My wedding and all that went along with it: the stress of planning; dancing with my father, little brother, and cousin who is mentally handicapped; partying with everyone; and having all my family and friends together in the same place at one time.
(c) Performing in front of Tony award winner Norbert Leo Butz last summer, and getting to meet and chat with him after the show.
(d) Grouping these together, but the memories I have of my grandfather, great aunt Annie, and grandmother, who have all passed on.
(e) Going to NYC for the first time.

8. What web site is your most guilty pleasure?
myspace

9. If you had to choose any mental illness, which would you choose?
I think I would have to pass on that choice.

10. If you had any magical power, what would you choose?
Mind reading capabilities

11. If you could be granted three wishes what would you wish?
Unlimited bank roll for my parents and brother, more opportunities for underpriveleged people to get good educations, and a completely paid for home for my husband and me. (Hey, I had to be a bit selfish!)

12. What living person do you have a lot of admiration for? Why?
My grandmother B. has been through a lot, is aging more quickly than I ever thought possible, and yet manages to live her life to the fullest every single day. This woman was so strong when she lost her husband, and although not a day goes by that she doesn't think about him, she knows she still has a life to live, and that he would want her to do that. And that's just what she does. Goes, goes, and goes...

13. If I could wave a magic wand, and grant you any new career immediately, what would you choose?
Medical Assistant

14 If you had to choose between being unable to hear or see, which would you choose? why?I'd rather not be able to hear. I already know sign language, and I can read lips pretty well, so I think I'd fare better that way.

15. If you had to choose three people outside of your relationship with whom to have sex, who would you choose?(Rule: you may use an alias for this person, but if you use an alias, you must state the reason why you would choose this person)
Johnny Depp, Albert Pujols, and Colin Farrell (guilty pleasures ;)

16. If you could free one person from prison, who would you choose?
An innocent person who has been imprisoned because of a wrongful accusation and unfair / incomplete trial.

17. List one thing from history that you think is amazing.
The days when people entertained themselves without the aid of video games, internet, computer, DVD players, etc. I guess the aspect of going out to live theatre, spending time with family and friends, making up ways to be entertained, are so much more appealing to me than the high tech stuff of today. Life must have been so much simpler, from an entertainment perspective, then.

18. If you had to choose to take on illegal drug what would you choose.
Although I won't ever actually do it, I've always wanted to try 'Shrooms.

19. If a worker treated you in a rotten, awful, horribly nasty way and then laughed at you, and if by complaining, you could get that person fired, would you do it?
Definitely. I'm vengeful sometimes. Laughing at me after treating me like sh*t is like kicking me when I'm down, so I'd feel like they got what they deserved. (Does that make me a horrible person??) Plus, this year's been pretty crappy in terms of job stuff, so I'm kinda sour.

20. What trait do you most admire in a person?
A good sense of humor, along with compassion.

21. What trait do you most dislike in a person?
Dishonesty.

22. What do you think about this poll?
It was more self-examining than: "What is ur fave color?".

random, rambling update

--I am currently working 2 1/2 days a week at my friend Dr. Buck's medical office on S. Broadway. They are looking for a full-time, certified, medical assistant; in the meantime, they needed someone part-time / temporary to help "fill the gaps" (answering phones, filing, etc.) so I was hired on.

--I had a second interview today at Mercy OB GYN, which is the full time position that I'm really hoping I get. The office is in the doctors' building at St. John's Mercy Medical Center, which is where my dad works, and I'd love to work there. I've pretty much decided I want to work in a medical office or hospital. I thought the interview went quite well, and they should know by Wednesday at the latest as to whether or not they are going to hire me. Keep your fingers crossed!

--Dustin & I suffered a bit of a blow with some bad news today, so if everyone could keep us in our prayers, it would be appreciated. I'm not going to go into details, but I definitely won't be asking, "What else could go wrong?" because I know as soon as I pull that crap, something worse will go wrong.

--My "baby" brother graduates highschool tomorrow from St. John's, and I'm kinda nervous about it. I'm putting together a scrapbook as his gift--it includes cards back from when he was born, baptized, First Communion, etc., along with pictures from then up til now. It's been a bit of a teary journey making it because it's hard for me to accept the fact that he's 18 and growing up soooo quickly. *sigh*

So that's about what I've been up to the last week or so. It's been crazy. Other than all that, rehearsals for "Cats" have been going well: the music is really sounding great, each member of the cast is putting more character into their songs, one of our 'cats' is expecting a 'kitten', and next week we start dancing. I'm just glad I have that to keep my mind off of the trials and tribulations Dustin & I are experiencing right now. Keeping my head up as much as possible!!!

i made a mistake

Ok, this is a REALLY DIFFICULT entry for me to write. I only ask that no one judge, based on my decision. I made a mistake.

Let me backtrack. I started my new job yesterday morning, only to suffer through the 8 hour day and come home in tears. I didn't like it. And that's no knock against the company or the people; it just wasn't for me. Those of you whom I've spoken with know all the "gory" details, so I won't go into them on here.

I called the office this morning and left a voicemail that I wouldn't be coming back in. I just didn't feel like I fit, or that I was suited for the job, or that it would get any better. I understand I only had a day under my belt, and that the first day or week of a new job is always overwhelming and stressful. However, if it's making me feel physically BAD (I woke up at 5 a.m. this morning in a cold sweat and could not get back to sleep, no matter how hard I tried), it's not worth it to me. I've spent way too much time in jobs where I was uncomfortable, unhappy, unsatisfied, and sometimes just plain miserable. And I've decided I'm not going to do that anymore. I have to do this for me, for the sake of my sanity, and as well as for the sake of my husband's sanity. It's not fair for me to settle for a job in which I will be so unhappy that I come home and make his life a living hell. I've done it before and I can't do it anymore.

Like I said, please don't judge. It definitely wasn't an easy decision, or one I made lightly. Part of me feels like people will be disappointed, or look down on me, or view me as a quitter. But then another part of me feels like it was MY decision, and I shouldn't have to explain. Yea, maybe I didn't give it much of a chance--after all, one day is NOTHING--but I couldn't. It just wasn't me, or what I wanted to do, simply stated.

I do have to thank all of you for all the support you've given me over the last couple months of being unemployed and being a roller coaster of emotions. And I appreciate the fact that you're all pulling for me to land that "dream job". And I appreciate even more the fact that you've all been such good friends that I can't even begin to describe it. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

And now, if you'll all excuse me, I have more resumes to send out, a return phone call to make to a potential employer, and a phone call to make to the temp agency. Here I go back on the rollercoaster, but at least I'm staying on the ride and not falling off. :)

finally, some good news!

I had an interview at GJ Grewe this morning at 9:30 a.m. GJ Grewe is a commercial real estate company who deal mainly with development of shopping centers (a.k.a., strip malls). They are also involved in the brokerage business, representing both retailers and restaurants. Some of their 'tenants' include Steak 'N' Shake, Walgreens, Toys 'R' Us, Target, Sonic, and Lowe's (plus more).

So anyway, first I interviewed with the lady in charge of sales, then I went in to interview with the president of the company. It was interesting, as I've never interviewed with someone that high up before. But surprisingly enough, I wasn't nervous. He rapid-fired questions at me, and I was able to rapid-fire answers back just as quickly...and honestly, as well. I thought it went well, and they did mention that my minimum salary requirement was definitely within their range. The president explained it is a very busy, very fast-paced office / type of work, so it won't leave much time for socializing in the office. I do enjoy the socializing aspect of working in an office, but this would keep me more focused and attentive to the tasks at hand, at least.

They called me about 45 minutes ago and offered me the job. So, on the day that was to mark my 2 month 'unemployment anniversary', I will be starting a new job in a new field.

It's definitely a different type of job for me, as I have NO real estate experience whatsoever, but at least I'm a quick learner. Hopefully this will be a new niche for me, something that I've never done but enjoy doing. I'll keep you all posted. I start tomorrow morning at 8:30 a.m. Wish me luck!